He wasn't sure how to explain it to her. It sounded, in fact, a bit stupid in his head. He didn't wanted her to cure his arm because the pain remind him that he was alive, and remind him his mistakes, that he was not good enough and that Vermouth tricked them. He needed to remember because he didn't wanted to make the same mistakes again.

"I need to remember what happened so it will not happen again." He o¡confessed int eh end.